Watching Michael Pitt do anything is like grade A pornography.
He became my dream.
I think I’ve finally come to terms with the fact that he’s not really in love with me anymore. I used to think he felt so apathetic about me because of his disorder, but I’m realizing that what’s happening right now isn’t really what you would do to the person you love. it makes me so sad, because I know that we were really good for each other. we made each other really fucking happy for a while. but you can’t really control a disorder just by loving him in spite of it. and I didn’t think it would end this way, but it’s been a year and a half of me constantly feeling like I’ve been waiting for him to give what I need, and I can only wait so long. and if he’s not really in love with me anymore, what’s the point of being together? why am I still waiting?
I don’t know. I still love him a whole fucking lot, but I think it’s actually done this time.
updated my blog with lil reviews for drugstore makeup inspired by my fave beauty youtubers so check it out pls n thx
huh. sometimes I forget that kyle and I have been on a break for the past five days.
jeez, I love him so much, but he can be so entirely exhausting. being in an on/off relationship is weird. we just drain a lot of energy out of each other, and sometimes we really hurt each other, and I think I’m beginning to feel disappointed in myself for just going back and forth for over a year
maybe I just want some sort of stability with him, I dunno
oops I made a blogspot and I’m really emotionally invested in it now
I need to post more photos but all in all, I’m kinda happy with how my first post turned out wow pls check it out n_n
welp I caved and did another retro order
fox in the flowers x2
tell me your thoughts if you’ve tried these before!!
Lol I am a hot mess of a human being
I made an appointment at a spa a few weeks ago, and they took my debit card info to hold the reservation. I cancelled at the last minute, and rescheduled for today. I can’t afford it, and they charge you the full price even if you cancel.
So I called my bank and had my account shut down and changed my debit card number. Fuck you, you snobby ass day spa!! You ain’t taking my money!!!
I’ve had the shittiest week and it’s kinda tested the boundaries of my sanity so yeah I promise I’m still alive
jfc I haven’t been on tumblr in a week but new youngbae photos and I think I’m losing it